i look in the mirror at her and wonder...how will this reaction of hers change over the years? will she always look in the mirror and smile? or will she look in the mirror and wish someone...something else was greeting her? i personally think she's the most beautiful person God ever created, but will she always see her beauty, her inner beauty?
when she smiles, my life gets better - my whole world lights up when she laughs. i can only hope that her smile stays this real and genuine as she grows up. she expresses joy ever every little new discovery. the whole world is her playground, even if all she knows of that world is our living room, her bedroom and her stroller lol. she can be fascinated with the corner of a pillow for 15 minutes, never mind the incredulity she has when we show her a toy that plays music and lights up. so many wonderful things in her little world...will she always have a love for discovery?
when i pick her up in the morning after she wakes up, she holds on to me for dear life. when she's sick, she just wants to be held, which is relatively unusual for her, actually. when she's tired, she doesn't want to be alone, esp if her daddy is home. she loves hearing josh's and my voices and if she can see our faces and hear us at the same time - all the better. she needs us, and it's a wonderfully scary feeling. i want to be everything i can be for this little person who needs me. will i always be there? give her the best advice? and the biggest question, will i ever disappoint her because i don't meet her needs?
so many questions that run through my head just from a simple, daily trip to the bathroom mirror. i want to be the best mommy i can be, for her. but right now, she just needs a diaper change, so we'll start with that.
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